If it is this, then it is not that (a poem Jan 27th, 2023)

If it is this, then it is not that 
(poem Jan 27, 2023)


The consciousness is the reflection 

 

Waves of probability,  

Probably not just evidenced in electrons,  

Collapsing into specific reality, 

Into a karma of carbon nanotubes,  

Inherently releasing some form of light through the process 

 

Nanotubular fractals  

 

Consciousness following the algorithmics of life 

 

Or the other way? 

 

Thermographic thoughts 

 

Growing up 

Realizing parts of you were hated before you were born 

What in the hell is that reality? That Karma? 

Something about the phrase, circumstances beyond my control – because I was not strong enough. 

 

That conflict.  

 

Is that why I hear voices accusing me of all my transgressions? Because I can’t accept my weakness? My consciousness yelling at me for how I am coping? Where were you when I needed you conciousness? Maybe the yelling voices is my strength.  

 

Yelling at myself, 

Voices a reflection of my consciousness. Sometimes I get frightened for a moment. 

Frightened of myself? An other? Where both are one? 

 

Sounds echo an 

Awaking dreamer  

 

Rainbow spighettification 

Into the event horizon of  

Them nanotubular fractal 

 

Observation 

 

A crackling existing 

 

Might’ve been a paranoid personalization before 

But thanks to time,  

A savoring of the irony of  

The fractal reality staring back,  

An echo 

Temporality of consciousness being cumulative  

 

Reflecting consciousness  

Hollows forming sounds 

And language  

Flute of Pan 

Songs of transgression 

 

Wrinkles on the face 

A temporal forge 

 

Them nanotubular correlations  

 

How probability shifts. 

 

Id gratification semantic arguments for the exercise of superego. All reductable by logic to redundancy.  Living a life of of that observation. So much excitability. Where do these emotions come from? Is it really just the weather? 

 

Existence of consciousness is independent of the fractal reduction of waves of probability collapsing in carbon nanotubes 

 

Fractal breakthroughs. A multiverse of probabilities  

 

Or waves collapsing into particles of light instead. 

 

 Or collapsing into an inverted void of probability.  

 

Light reflecting from a shadow 

 

That’s possible but then what?  

 

Is there something beyond 

Electricity aligning in the weather 

 

A reflection? 

 

Life is happening to me? 

 

Be mindful of  

 

 

I am just the reflection?  

I am not even that? 

 

 

 

Weakness lies in spine at heart 

 Not enough head to heart electricity … or some such weather as that 

Just find a way to honor all parts of yourself 

Like an angelicdemonic multi dimentionality 

   Like I know where the things will rise up 

Speak to a motion  

Or time 

 

Overcoming karmic ennui through malaise of probabilities  

What do I have to give myself into becoming,  

Something, somehow for all 

 

The shadow of the hollow of the throat, called suddenly heaven, is space time. This body in 

 

        Space time.  

That warp. Densities of what? Quanta of reality perceived by consiousness?  

 Shift movement, density, reality. Feel that gravity? You’re feeling the warp, the distortions, movements, realities folding into each other.  Celestial bodies. 

 

Maybe it’s all a divine computer with no beginning or end. You and I reader are users making it real… what a pure metaphor  

 

Sound, movement of space 

Time nurtures if you listen 

Feel your own gravity 

 

Chi energy 

The vibration in your hand you can feel if something is alive  

Or still like an inanimate object 

 

Making it big 

Fajing your life into the existence  

 

Waves upon waves 

 

Spacetime is gravity 

3 dimensions of space

1 dimension of time

What are the other dimensions like? 

Light is matter too  

String or one vibe 

Time is light 

Time light and gravity  

The holy trinity of consciousness  

All a reflection of the same nothing 

 

Space just is 

 

the nothing exists outside of light and time and gravity.  

 do you know the nothing, consciousness? 

 

Do you remember? 

 

Space just is 

 

Gravity is the warp we feel in space time because of mass 

The curve of all nature 

 

The taoist text translated to: 

Tilt the concealed tilt 

It was already so. 

Cute trick 

maybe one of those is linked to, or responsible for consciousness, the energy of the nothing acting as a vessel, 

Nurturing the most impossible probability – life? The warping evident  

 

I feel like it was love 

 

Was is a funny word when pondering the quantum 

 

Consciousness finding superposition in space while time is the warp of space 

 

Consciousness drawn to mass, 

A wet separation of mother and child 

 

Eyes in the brane 

 

Seeing so many worlds – potentials 

 

Chaos, sadness, darkness 

Our demons 

 

Light, order, joy 

Our angels 

 

Love  

I worship matter 

I pray whole heartedly for it’s continued existence  

I love it with all my heart 

Can feel the love 

The love vibrates outside of me 

 

That is my faith 

In that I place my




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